Wuthering Choices

In class during the Wuthering Heights in-class teaching Mrs. Burnett said something that caught my interest.  Catherine had to chose between Heathcliff and Edgar.  She didn't have a choice to not chose.  I thought about this and she really did not.  During her time women were suppose to marry and have children and take care of the house.  That was their job and that's what they had to do.  This made me think about myself. I have no choice right now either.  Technically I do, but it doesn't feel like it.  I have no choice but to chose a college.  I must apply and I must get in there is no other option.  Otherwise I will be stuck working at Domino's my whole life.  Now there's nothing wrong with those who end up there; its just not fantasized about in our society.  (But there kind of is something wrong.)  Ever since I was born, I knew that one day I was going to grow up and go to college.  No other future even entered my mind; honestly I thought there was no other future.  This is just what you did.  Now I am finally realizing why some people do not go and why some people cannot.  This is more than some people can handle; it is more than some people can afford.  The stress is getting to me.  If I place the sentence right here then I will get in the college but if I place it somewhere else well! I will not be getting in!  I know that this is ridiculous and that one sentence will not decide my fate but right now it feels that way.  I can see Catherine sitting in her room etching the names of her two loves on her windowsill, trying to decided which one is perfect for her.  I am doing it myself in a different way. I'm sitting there with a calculator in hand seeing which college I can afford.  I almost wish I could write to her and tell her things do not change.  I think she would know that though.  Two hundred years later and I'm sitting here choosing a fate.  I do not have a choice but to decide.  I guess I am lucky though, I do not have to get married right now; I am just picking out the best way to educate myself.  I hope I am happy with my decision even though Catherine was not.